None of the girls were supposed to know this. Because I was freelance I could be my own man, so to speak, and I would keep myself busy by ensuring I had dates lined up. I never looked like a drunk, I just was one, and anyway in those days advertising was a far more boozy affair than it is today. And after that I got job after job without too much trouble. Even in art school, I got a grant because my dad had just retired and I suddenly became eligible. Strangely, I was always able to get money. A contradiction in terms if ever there was one. I was working freelance in advertising all through this period in London. The deeper in they were, the more beautiful they looked when the moment came. All those intimate moments, every little sigh, those gentle touches, the lovemaking, the confidences, the orgasms, the attempted orgasms, all mere fuel. There was just the two of us and the pain. They'd just stare at me in disbelief and shock.Īll the pretense and rules dissolved away. He'd done it, though, because I'd been taking the pith out of hiths listhp. I was lucky to get out of that house alive. One of my ‘victims’ stuck my head on an electric cooker-ring. And then when he'd head-butt me, I'd say, “Call that a head-butt?’ So the guy would do it again harder. I'd go up to the biggest guy in the place and look up his nostrils and call him a faggot. My mouth always got me into trouble, of course. But then, as far as I was concerned, wasn’t everyone doing the same thing? I started to realize something was wrong when I began to get beaten up. I think I always knew deep down I had a drinking problem. Either way, after getting into Alcoholics Anonymous I didn't even kiss a girl for five years. Or maybe I was just afraid that they'd see through me. I couldn't even look at a girl, much less believe I deserved to converse with one. I carried the guilt of my crimes around with me for years after I stopped drinking. I've been punished, so it's okay to talk about it all. Balance has been restored The same thing happened to me, only worse. Then the glaze as they tried to hide how much I was hurting them. Till the big saucer eyes were looking at me. I'd wait until they were totally in love with me. I didn't care how long it took either because I was in no hurry. It's like when you hear serial killers say they feel no regret, no remorse for all the people they killed. It's not a daunting psychological study about the right and wrong, even though it does talk a lot about the darkness and the sins that the main character is fully consumed by.Mentally not physically, I never hit a girl in my life. It's a pretty brutal novel that explores the darkest dungeons of our souls and warns about the dangers of going too far down the rabbit hole.Īt the same time, despite it all, you'll have a wonderful ride with this book and read through it overnight. That's the only thing that allows him to enjoy his own pathetic existence. The question is: will they be able to break free and move on or will they just wait for it all to be over? Countless people on planet Earth had to go through harassment and violence others hurt or at least wanted to hurt others, so, in a way, this book is for everybody - both for the hunter and the prey.ĭiary of an Oxygen Thief is a challenging, provoking story about a self-absorbed, weak individual that only feels good about himself when he destroys the lives of others. Looking for a book that talks about love, hate, passion and rage in a fresh, exciting manner? You just found it! Self-destruction is the main theme of this book and the author shows us that some folks are willing to let other people destroy them, break their minds and souls. This is a novel about a broken heart - it's beautiful and ugly at the same time. The Diary of an Oxygen Thief is a 100% original story that will make you laugh, cry and swear while still enjoying every moment of it. Every once in a while, a special book comes around that stands out and delivers an unforgettable experience.
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